Maybe it's just my 20s

But I have been trying so hard lately to piece together sections of my life.

How did this piece fit with this one? What would have been different if this hadn't happened? Did I do everything I should have in this piece to get to this piece?

And I can't help but wonder if what many others have said is true...is life just a series of random occurrences?

I want it all to fit together perfectly, to make sense of it and analyze it and figure out how I got from Point A to Point B and where Point C might be.

But it just isn't working.

Honestly, I am loving my job. And while it does fit with one of my degrees, it doesn't with the other. I wonder if I just wasted my time and spent a whole lot of time spinning my wheels and causing myself unneeded stress to get to this point. Did I even pick the right degrees in the first place?

I guess I just feel guilty and strange about all the time I spent trying so hard to achieve and achieve and achieve to get to the point where I'm at. I wouldn't have had to do all that I did to be where I am now.

But I guess that wouldn't have made me who I am today.