Flashes of brilliance rarely strike, and I've been waiting (
checks calendar) eight years for a worthy idea to reanimate the blog. Today, it finally happened 💖
I work for a law firm as a librarian, and in the most heartwarmingly adorable librarian-themed thing to do, we have a book exchange with our department that works like a white elephant gift exchange. Before the gathering, we all send one book title to our boss, who puts together a list based on all of our choices, and there are no repeats. The first person can pick any number, and the book behind that number (on a PowerPoint, since we're working remotely) will be revealed. The next person can choose to steal that book or pick a number to choose a different, unrevealed book. I was number 19 this year, so a fair number of books were revealed, and there were a few I was contemplating stealing. But something in my gut told me to choose an unrevealed book. So, I had to decide which number. I considered a few, but none felt quite right. Then, when it was my turn, I chose book 22 and told everyone I was choosing it because of my birthdate (August 22). My boss, who was leading the book exchange said, "Well, that number sounds a lot like Taylor Swift!" And the book that was revealed was Invisible Strings edited by Kristie Frederick Daughterty. This was the day after The Eras Tour concluded, and I was tired and in a state of mild mourning - no more surprise songs to tune into, no more new outfit reveals. When I saw that this was the book I chose, not because of Taylor Swift, but because of my birthdate, there were tears in my eyes. I honestly can't think of a more Invisible String than that. You can call it Tayvoodoo, coincidence, or yes, an invisible string, but no matter its name, it was magical. It turns out, one of my teammates had chosen the book especially for me. If I were to have been the first person to choose a book, the odds were 1 in 29, but I have a feeling those odds grew exponentially since I was the nineteenth person to choose a book, and no one had chosen book 22 yet. It was the most beautiful post-Eras gift I could have imagined 🌟
Fast-forward a few days, and I received the book in the mail. I wanted to start it immediately, but I also wanted to save it to be the first book I finished in 2025 as a nod to the wonderful past two years of my life that have been pretty Taylor-centric, if we're being honest. I read the first (I SWEAR TO GOD THIS WAS NOT PLANNED) 13 poems on December 18, then set the book aside since I traveled home to visit family for the holidays. I was a little disappointed that there's no "key" in the book that reveals which song was the inspiration for each of the 113 poems in the book. After reading the first 13 (still can't believe it, TBH. The poems themselves aren't numbered. They're only numbered in the Contents.), I thought, "There is no way I'm going to be able to figure out which song is linked with which poem, and even if I tried, that would be a LOT of work." I'm not sure when the idea revealed itself, but it might have been when I was doing laundry. THIS is the way back to the blog! This is writing about writing, which I love, and I would be writing about writing about writing which is some kind of wild inception that I am definitely here for. Am I qualified? Probably not. I dropped out of AP English my junior year because I couldn't handle the workload, but I did complete AP English my senior year and received an "A" in the course. I have a degree in journalism, though that didn't include studying much (read: any) poetry. I also have a degree in Spanish Language and Literature, and there were at least a couple classes that focused on Spanish poetry, so I guess I've got that in my back pocket. But I dearly love Taylor Swift, songs, songwriting, cultural references, pop culture, and basically everything this project will entail. I have my spreadsheet of songs at the ready and will be digging deep back into my brain circa 2007-2008 to access some of those lessons on poetry from AP English. I hope you'll join me, and please feel free to chime in. I would love to have discussions based around the songs and the poetry. I think it's going to be a marvelous time 😇
I won't reproduce the poem here since I'm not well-versed in copyright law and am unsure if I can do so, but I will reference certain lines and how I interpret them to connect to Taylor's songs. I'm also going to assume that the book includes poems in response to songs from The Tortured Poets Department, but I am not sure on that. I'll put a question to the editor of this work in Goodreads and see if she responds!
"Pull" by Maggie Smith
When I read this first poem in the context of trying to determine which song it was in response to, my immediate thought was, "Oh no." I've since read it many times, and I'm still seeing a variety of avenues this one could take. My response will be a sort of stream-of-consciousness, and we'll see if I reach a conclusion by the end.
The third line where she references "woods & rain" makes me think folklore or evermore, "trees smelling of wet leather." The appearance of the word "pretty" certainly evokes "invisible string," but the subject of the poem doesn't line up with "invisible string," so that's out.
The mention of "dark windows" and "seeing only myself reflected but staring & staring" turns to TTPD: The Anthology for me with "I Look in People's Windows." A possibility.
As I reread the poem while listening to the song, another scenario appears in the poem: the narrator IS inside, looking outside, "knowing too well the other side." Hmm. I may be getting stuck on the window as a literal connection to "I Look in People's Windows," but it's hard to let go. There is also a line in "Windows" that says, "a feather taken by the wind blowing," which links to the narrator in the poem being outside.
I'm looking at her discography and about to listen to "The Outside." - a debut song, and definitely in line with the outdoor elements, at least literally. It could be a fit, but there's no nature imagery, and there's no window imagery. I'm getting stuck in the poem on the narrator actually getting inside but being fixated on the outside.
"Anti-Hero" is a possibility with the theme of the poem, but in the song, she can "stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror," so it doesn't seem to be the same narrator who is "seeing myself reflected but staring & staring." I think it could still work, but there aren't any nature themes in the song, and the nature seems to have a significant role in the poem.
If the imagery isn't a match and it's based on content alone, I think "Guilty as Sin?" could have potential. The narrator at the end of them poem inside trying to look out, and the narrator in the song says, "This cage was once just fine." In both the song and the poem, the narrator ends up wanting out, in a way.
So, I think my final answer (for now) is either "I Look in People's Windows" or "Guilty as Sin?"