It's a funny thing when you realize that your life is just...going.
I don't know what to think or do anymore. I had just settled into something, a lifestyle, I suppose, more a way of thinking, I guess. And then I realize that's nowhere near the person I am. It's so typical to just forget about things because it's easier to push them to the back of your head, to let the day to day take over. But then you realize that that's not what your life is. That's not your dreams, your hope, your future. It's a funny thing knowing that there's someone that knows you and knows you well. They have a part of you that no one else has, and they are the one that has given you life, hope. They have given you the things that make up your life. And then they're gone. But not. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about them. The ideas, though, fade. And then they return. And I remember feeling that there was absolutely nothing that I couldn't do. Maybe that's what I'll remember more than anything - the belief that I could do absolutely anything, that I was, at one point in my life, something special, something different. And no one has seen it since. I know there was a reason behind it all. I know it. To have someone believe in you is the most changing experience - to tell you that Princeton is possible, that they have been where you are, and that you can do anything. That is something special. To have them share a part of their life with you. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I'm living day to day, and I just don't know how to sync the two. I don't know how to believe in myself without you. I miss you. Your sarcasm, your ability to make me think, laugh, wonder, lead. The assignments, the thinking. It's funny how things change so quickly, yet they stay the same. I will do what I can to make you proud. I will do what I can for myself, but mostly because you believed in me.
All your life you've waited
for love to come and stay,
and now that I have found you,
you must not slip away.
I know it's hard believin'
the words you've heard before,
but darlin' you must trust them just once more.
'Cause m' baby goodbye
doesn't mean forever,
let me tell you goodbye,
doesn't mean We'll never be together again,
If you wake up and i'm not there,
I won't be long away
'cause the things you do
my goodbye girl
will bring me back to you.
I know you've been taken,
afraid to hurt again.
You fight the love you feel for me,
instead of givin' in.
But i can wait forever
while helpin' you to see
that i was meant for you and you for me.
So remember goodbye
doesn't mean forever.
Let me tell you goodbye
doesn't mean we'll never be together again.
Though we may be so far apart
you still would have my heart.
So forget your past,
my goodbye girl
'cause now you're home at last.
